When I'm in my bad state and having flare after flare, my body begins to deteriorate in some way. I'm a mere 100 lbs, size 4 in pants and down to a 34B in bras.
But when I am healthy, I am a blooming 130 lbs, size 12 in pants and a 38D in bras. And it feels wonderful to have my curves back. It feels healthy when I have my weight on me.
The only bad thing about weight change is that it's constant in chronic illness. I never really look the same year after year and people react to my body in negative and positive ways. It took awhile to feel good about myself and get use to my body changing.
And needing to have a box for "normal" clothes and "sick" clothes (that's annoying).
After I started getting use to my body changing, I got use to knowing how to take care of it in each state. Keeping my body healthy is the goal these days. Whether I'm skin and bone or blooming in curves. I know it's going to change as I get older and as my body reacts to my illness.
Here's to staying healthy in the best way possible and always being grateful for what I do have.